Clover spayed | 18 November 2013

i was updating my diary about Clover's spaying detail. i suddenly feel so sad. My dear Clover's wound bleed at my house a day after i bring her home.

yes she do have some temper. a day before she was so mad with the E-Collar i put on her to prevent her licking her wound. She bang here and there. i didn't even bother to check! today(23/11) my dad actually told me her leash strangle around the chair and she was stuck.

I bring her to the vet on Thursday if im not mistaken. because her wound is dripping blood. Doctor say its infection. when im home from the vet, i notice the whole car is covered in blood. It's even more serious.

i quickly call the vet and drive her back to the clinic. i check her in for another few days.

that's not where i feel bad about. it was today, i called the vet for updates. he said the wound open up. and he needs to re-stitch and do dressing.

after my teaching my dad drive me over to see her. the vet was so busy on this saturday. i walk in the kennel room to find her curled up in her kennel. She's really down. just like that few days after her operation. i walk closer and she noticed me. She start to wag her tail and got very excited. then i thought.. she's been eating all those dry food. i walk out and look for a canned food to feed her. She scream so loud! so loud that the whole clinic starting to look into the direction.

i choose one canned food and walk back to the kennel. A greedy dog like her. choose to push her way out instead of getting the food. she keep trying until i have to close the cage to let all the food out.

She became quiet and start eating. i walk out again. She still sense that im there. After "she finish her food i guess". She screams again. "Ahhhhhhh ahhhhh". My clover is such a baby i thought..

so i ask for permission to let her out. they allowed. she no longer walk beside me..she was pushing her way out .. to get the hell out of that nasty place!

i spend some quality time with her outside while waiting for the doctor. We have decided to put her there for another 2 day until her wound clear up. She will then go to my friend's house.

The worst part came when the kennel man leash her back to the kennel. and with cone around her to block her view. She can't believe she have to go back there again. a dog who needs freedom so badly..
I can't even say "goodbye baby i will come and pick u on monday".. she wont feel any better with me talking. I feel so horrible. did i made a mistake for spaying her? I'm so sorry to her that she have to go through that again.

Clover my baby i really love you i hope you wont be so down. I'll really come and get you for sure. Love u.

3rd attack! Clover bitten Snowie 16/11/13

Just when i have more confident of both of them going out together. It strikes again. This is the 3rd time Clover attack snowie. It was an adoption drive. Yes she is definitely stress.. even stress after she was groomed. I don't know why she wants to attack Snowie. We were about to leave already.

That scene is almost a nightmare and unforgettable. My hands are full. My reaction is slow. Clover bite Snowie, Snowie show that fearful face but doing her best to show as much teeth possible. The great Dane join in. Didn't fight but join around. Clover still wouldn't let go. All i did was pulling the leash i don't even know what to response. A guy then carry Clover away.

I was so mad! Enough is enough. Any other bad things she did i can bear with it but attack my precious is a no way! Until now i can still see snowie being pressed down and bite.

We then check for wound. It wasn't obvious.. the fur is too thick! We missed out a big wound which i found during shower time at home. She keep yelling when i touched the leg. Then i saw that big hole.

I was shocked to hand shaking non stop. I must send clover away was all in my mind.  I kept saying sorry to snowie for the trouble i bring home when we were rushing to Vet.
2 stitches need as her wound was torn.

Back at home i got scolded by mother several times. I keep silent. No one know how sad i feel. First it was snowie. Then its Clover. She have to go back straying again. Its all my fault!

But today i tell myself. I will not ever wanna see Snowie get pressed down like that anymore. That horrible face that i cannot bear to see. She is all i have.