Clover? Still missing her

Clover is at her foster home now. It's been 2 weeks. I flip through her picture every night before sleep. I miss her so much. That baby look on her face, that queen look on her face, almost every single bit of her.

Hope your doing good without me baby! Love you so much!

Yi
06/12/13

Clover spayed | 18 November 2013

i was updating my diary about Clover's spaying detail. i suddenly feel so sad. My dear Clover's wound bleed at my house a day after i bring her home.

yes she do have some temper. a day before she was so mad with the E-Collar i put on her to prevent her licking her wound. She bang here and there. i didn't even bother to check! today(23/11) my dad actually told me her leash strangle around the chair and she was stuck.

I bring her to the vet on Thursday if im not mistaken. because her wound is dripping blood. Doctor say its infection. when im home from the vet, i notice the whole car is covered in blood. It's even more serious.

i quickly call the vet and drive her back to the clinic. i check her in for another few days.

that's not where i feel bad about. it was today, i called the vet for updates. he said the wound open up. and he needs to re-stitch and do dressing.

after my teaching my dad drive me over to see her. the vet was so busy on this saturday. i walk in the kennel room to find her curled up in her kennel. She's really down. just like that few days after her operation. i walk closer and she noticed me. She start to wag her tail and got very excited. then i thought.. she's been eating all those dry food. i walk out and look for a canned food to feed her. She scream so loud! so loud that the whole clinic starting to look into the direction.

i choose one canned food and walk back to the kennel. A greedy dog like her. choose to push her way out instead of getting the food. she keep trying until i have to close the cage to let all the food out.

She became quiet and start eating. i walk out again. She still sense that im there. After "she finish her food i guess". She screams again. "Ahhhhhhh ahhhhh". My clover is such a baby i thought..

so i ask for permission to let her out. they allowed. she no longer walk beside me..she was pushing her way out .. to get the hell out of that nasty place!

i spend some quality time with her outside while waiting for the doctor. We have decided to put her there for another 2 day until her wound clear up. She will then go to my friend's house.

The worst part came when the kennel man leash her back to the kennel. and with cone around her to block her view. She can't believe she have to go back there again. a dog who needs freedom so badly..
I can't even say "goodbye baby i will come and pick u on monday".. she wont feel any better with me talking. I feel so horrible. did i made a mistake for spaying her? I'm so sorry to her that she have to go through that again.

Clover my baby i really love you i hope you wont be so down. I'll really come and get you for sure. Love u.

3rd attack! Clover bitten Snowie 16/11/13

Just when i have more confident of both of them going out together. It strikes again. This is the 3rd time Clover attack snowie. It was an adoption drive. Yes she is definitely stress.. even stress after she was groomed. I don't know why she wants to attack Snowie. We were about to leave already.

That scene is almost a nightmare and unforgettable. My hands are full. My reaction is slow. Clover bite Snowie, Snowie show that fearful face but doing her best to show as much teeth possible. The great Dane join in. Didn't fight but join around. Clover still wouldn't let go. All i did was pulling the leash i don't even know what to response. A guy then carry Clover away.

I was so mad! Enough is enough. Any other bad things she did i can bear with it but attack my precious is a no way! Until now i can still see snowie being pressed down and bite.

We then check for wound. It wasn't obvious.. the fur is too thick! We missed out a big wound which i found during shower time at home. She keep yelling when i touched the leg. Then i saw that big hole.

I was shocked to hand shaking non stop. I must send clover away was all in my mind.  I kept saying sorry to snowie for the trouble i bring home when we were rushing to Vet.
2 stitches need as her wound was torn.

Back at home i got scolded by mother several times. I keep silent. No one know how sad i feel. First it was snowie. Then its Clover. She have to go back straying again. Its all my fault!

But today i tell myself. I will not ever wanna see Snowie get pressed down like that anymore. That horrible face that i cannot bear to see. She is all i have.

the short term memory lost?

it's a midnight post! about an incident happened yesterday at pyramid. before we reach the place i told my sister and friend to remind me shops i need to go after our dinner at cappriciosa (it was great!).

one of the station i need to stop by is Daiso! i walk in.. i even hold one basket as if im gonna buy alot. then after turning one round.. i quickly look for my sister and her friend and ask "did i tell u what i wanna buy?" "shit i don't remember what i wanna buy"

not at all!!! then i pass by popular.. i remember there's one thing i need to buy from popular. oh ya i forgotten too. it feels like the brain system just shut down your memory switch. LoL

actually it wasn't the first time. just that this time a bit serious that i don't remember at all. normally i'd forget whether i've taken my daily medicine. few months back i start to forget things. thats why i always blog and also keep a diary.

i've read on the internet before that epileptic patient do experience memory lost. im glad im not that serious yet! it's just short term :P another reason is caffeine.. drinking too much coffee is bad for patient with seizure.

or probably... i'm aging too fast?? hahah!! i shall sleep now. ;)

Old lady,
Yi
24/10/2013

Snowie's Cataract

Today's topic is dog's eye cataract!! well, it's a dog aging thing.. normally the vet would say it's no big deal. really, it's no big deal.

when Snowie got her first cataract when she's 9? (cataract- see picture). i feel nothing at all. vet gave me options. 1. Operation 2. Can-C eye drop (50/50) 3. leave it.

I personally think it's a growing up thing. She's 9 that year. Operation is a big No! as for Can-C eye drop? Doctor's patient feedback is 50/50. i can only purchase online. and it's very expensive. so i decided not to do anything with the cataract. well, she have heart enlarge problem, joint problem, why do i need to add another trouble dripping here and there? it's so much stress for her. Besides, Doctor said it's 100% left eye, 25% right eye. that was a years ago. she have no trouble with vision. she have one more eyes to see even though it's 25% cataract.

Just few days ago, after the dogathon, back at home i look at her, the black pearl right eye has slowly turned into blue. immediately i burst into tears. for the fact that she is so many steps ahead of me. of course i know it's part of her growing up and i've already get myself ready for anything to happen. but stillllllll.... seeing her grow up is quite sad.

i cried for like.. one hour or so. it now explain why she's always anxious when someone touches her from back or with too many dogs around.

she start hitting drawers at home when it's open. She will stare at wall for nothing.

i announce her current condition to my parents. about maybe 50% vision left. she can see but she won't be able to tell the distance. all drawers opened must be closed. they were sad as well but i tell them not to worry since we're not moving anywhere. furniture are not being moved. she might be stress for now(beginning). sooner or later she will get used to it.

we met the doctor recently and honestly no one knows she's 10, turning 11. what doc say is, for a senior dog she's in a very good state.

If you have an old dog like me. Don't worry, shower her with love. i always tell her that don't worry. i'll be your guiding light.

If you're interested to try Can-C eye drop for your dog, here's the link.
Can-C: http://www.vita-stream.com/can-c-eye-drops.html?gclid=CNru-rnMnboCFYgB4godx0QANQ

Hope this helps. i couldn't afford such drop for my dogs. but do let me know if it works :) If you don't have the fund just like me? let's be their guiding light.. we'll cry for a day or two.. then do our job as their guiding light :)

 

Love,

Yi

17/10/13

Hoorayyyyy~~~~

It's not like it's a biggie news but for me yes!! i finally joined my official gmail to this blog!! now i can write more often!!

signing off!!
Yi
14/10/13