To Darren~

darren, i'm not trying to make u down..what i wanna say is, look at those people around you, you think they look good?everyone have their own story, many more people are living in hell, many ppl have harder life than yours..

you are not a sick child, you can move, you can talk, you're not deaf or mute..if you think what u tell me is the only way to solve the problem, if u think there's no people who really care for you, then just do what you want...

all the while im trying to make you happier, i know living alone outside is hard, especially when you're alone..that is the matter of whether u want to work it out or not...if you think destroying it will be the best way, do it...

worst to worst your family and people who loves u will cry for few days..at that time, no one will feel pity for you, u will make your family feel sorry, feel guilty, if that's what u want, hurt them..hurt them hard then...

i used to be like you, where i just think of suicide suicide suicide, but think about it, when i was born, i got pneumonia, after pneumonia, i got epilepsy...everytime i suffer, i wanna die..but one thing..what bout my parents??they paid for all my medical bills...for what??they wannt me to live good...

everything is the same..same goes to you...if there's a reason to die, there will be a reason to live..my family, is the reason for me to live..snowie, is my reason to live..

maybe you don't have now..but don't u have a dream??u don't want anything??ur satisfy with your life now?

im sure u dont...cause that is your REASON to die...but i dont see that...i will laugh at u if u die...you give up so easily...demon is in you darren...we don't play the game this way..we don't lose the game and we die...

look at those people that suffer from sickness and earthquake..they are not even given the chance to control their life...and u are here, telling me u want to give it up to god...god wont even keep ur fucking dead body...

think about it darren, i say all this cause i treat u as friend, i care for you..even i havent seen u in real before...you're just a game friend...but i will say this to every person who see life and death so easily..

i don't care if ur fooling with those words or really mean it...i just hate it when people say that...

sorry if this don't make u happy..i just want u to be well..anything u still can come for me..bye..!!

your friend,
MetalYi