Another issue?-family is even worst

First, it was friend issue that i have. and it;s not even settle yet. now family. i don't know what i've done.

Yo father, you don't know me at all. i just need little attention. Just little u know. it's ok if you don't wanna care bout me or what soever. at least be fair to me.

i know u love da jie and boy alot. but you can't just push everything to lin and i. why the hell boy and i sit at the same table u must ask me to do. i DON'T MIND doing anything but with that kind of tone. i really feel like killing myself. dissapear at once.

it ain't the first time. and i start to hate all of you.

hate myself for being so emotional.

Gothic Subculture

go through some pictures to be place in my blog header.


wow i really think that Goth stuff are very nice. some of them are quite scary though...

The gothic's arts are extremely wonderful


Sometimes really wish that i can be one of them. wonder what will happen if i came home one day wearing the clothes and accessories like them.

Friend issue~~

Why are there "friends" in our life?


do you have a real "friend"


do your "friend" really cares about you?

i think i really have issue with "friends".

Primavera in anticipo [transcribe lyrics]

song : Primavera in anticipo

it's the transcribed lyrics. =) Song by Laura Pausini Go to NazaaHitz to listen to the song

sing your lungs out

Primavera In Anticipo (It Is My Song)
Feat. Laura Pausini

Per scontato non do,
Niente di quel che ho,
Neanche un minimo brivido.
Ora no.

it's the end that i breath,
It's my fall at your feet,
It is my song,
I see when you have gone.

Confesso sei la causa mia primaria,
adesso in me,
di tutto il buono che c'è.
Aaaaaah, lo so,
Sei la primavera in anticipo.
Aaaaaah, la prova che
dimostra quale effetto hai su me,
Perchè...

All my hopes and my fears,
(My hopes, my fears)
In this moment are clear.
You are the one,
My moon, my stars, my sun.

Per questo nei polmoni cambia l'aria,
Del resto sei, sei
Sei tutto il buono che c'è!
Aaaaaah, lo so,
Questa primavera in anticipo,
Aaaaaah, l' esempio che,
Dimostra quanto effetto hai su me.

Fiori che nascono tra i rovi,
Qui fuori cicatrizzano gli errori.

Sei senz'alcun dubbio l'artefice
Di questa primavera che c'è,
In me,
In me,
Qui fuori,
Nell'autoscatto di noi.

Darkness me

a miserable day. Today i discover a darker side of me. i didn't knew that i want my everything to be better then the others. like few people i know and definitely don't agree with them. I'm talking bout my studies anyway.

Today's presentation skill only have 3 minutes of speech and only 20%. I take it so serious. maybe not SO but QUITE. at least better then the others. i took few days to prepare. make sure the thing that i have to say is exactly 3 minute long. and i took days to practise as well.

It turns out that people that didn't practice/prepare got the highest mark in the class. Some people stopped half way; some people even nervous till i can see tears in their eyes; and guess what they got? 10/20. and im just 13/20. no big different. i should have gotten a higher mark.

A "Friend" of mine. i didn't like her that much. but i always help the others when they're out of certain situation. I informed her about the presentation cause she's such a blur-ry and i knew she would forget bout the presentation. 2 days before the presentation i inform her. She seems unprepared. But she got the highest in the class. which make me moody they whole day. She didn't even attend the topic approval class. and yeah..there she go...with the highest mark.

my sister told me that i've changed. i shouldn't think that way. yeah..i realize that too..since videography. i shot the psa..i don't want others to be better then me.

The truth is my result really gotten better. and i want to keep it that way. but i don't want others to be better then me. that's very bad.!!

I'll try to change...i will change..i'll try not to care bout this kind of "result comparing" thing starting today. =)

Thanks to BeiYan and Yoyo for being with me when im down. i appreciate that.

Cheers people,
Sodina