Wie's Spay Surgery | My heart is jumping out ~

So today, as planned, i brought snowie for the spay surgery. two days before she did a blood test and it shows all fine just that her white blood cell is low and her blood is bit little from the normal.

yesterday night when i look at her, i pity her. she don't even know what will happen tomorrow (today). when we were in the car, she can already feel it. she reach the vet and she dun resist to walk on. poor thing. i'm not a bad person at all. i'm just doing for her good. so that she got a healthier life. and prevent uterine infection. that's really scary.

see that "Y" shape there? if she happens to have infection on her later years, that "Y" will bengkak, then internal bleeding. which, u wont even know she's bleeding. also, spay to prevent cancer, not to kill it. cancer will still come back.

the thing is, she's 8, i'm so worry she won't be able to wake as the vet says there's risk for older dogs. today after sending her to the "wad".. i feel so sad leaving her there. after walking out from the vet i feel vomiting.

once i reach home i went out to buy her a new matt as vet say she need a clean place to sleep. then wash all her matts and bed she sleeps on. i'm so tired that i fell asleep on the couch around 3 to 4pm. when i wake up im looking at the clock. start to worry. when it reach 6pm, i get even worry i keep looking at my phone waiting the people from the hospital to call.

then i feel throwing up. my heart aches that i feel im going to die. i goes panic alone there and i cant stand it anymore. i pick up the phone to ask. whether its a good news or bad news i'll have to accept it. it was 6:55pm. the staff said, "oh, that old dog? all surgery is done already (they got a list of paper for today, i saw this morning), she woke up already. the surgery ended at 4pm" i almost cry. tears of happiness? i dont know but the tears just feel coming out from the eyes. lol.

and so i feel stupid. 3-4pm i was sleeping. 4pm her surgery is done d. but then only i start worrying since 4pm. gahhhh!!!! why din't they call????????????? but i'm glad she woke up.

and so...tomorrow im going to get her. i'm so excited. going to see her yay! i hope she won't have after effects from the surgery. i trust the vets. i know they can do it. although it's bit expensive >.<

Metal
23/06/11
Thursday