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simply awesome =)



not by me!

BY DYLAN OSBORN FILM

MetalYi

Another free day to spend..~~

This was done yesterday, 12/12/09. don't you think the editing was way better than the opera short film? lol

anyway this is just for practicing..i will keep come up with videos =) later will be animation.

this holiday, before meet yoyo. is to practice and game =P that's the only way i can forget the pain cause from the opera short film =)

Cheers and happy holiday to all,
MetalYi

Rate your "View"

i don't know if this is consider COMPLETE..cause for me it is just temporary work. and i hated this kind of work. there's many part that can't be change already. i set my expectation too high i guess..i'm happy that we made it through the shooting. at least we experienced once..shooting backstage..but after editing..i just can't stop having bad dream about this work.. or dream about going to the editing room..or lecturer wants me to re-do..it really haunts me.

i became so depress after all this. monday will go to college and capture the video without text..so that i can come back and do when im free. now look at it. i just feel sad. i failed. i let everyone down. all the crew that worked so hard on that day. or pre-pro. everything failed at editing.

there's one thing that make me hate myself..which is i already don't have the heart to touch this thing. i'm worst.

alright there's the video. watch it and comment. i don't mind having bad comments since its already bad.

25/11, 26/11 - OPERA SHORT FILM - SALAK - PROGRESSION

Done with shooting...!!

next is dubbing and editing..hope i can save back the story from editing..

due to the size of the backstage we cant take much angle..what we can do is just grab one from this clip and one from that clip..

and ofcourse, i hope i can really re-do the opera dubbing part..as we're temporary using the karaoke disc for the singing part..i don't like infringe copyright!

as for yesterday, i was a little angry with jhau for being late yet i feel funny for getting angry lol - my patience had its limit!!! HAHA

feeling a little unlucky for the shooting yesterday..it's not as smooth as the first day..and many thing just get on my nerves..i guess its because of the hot weather and lack of sleep..

This project is a hard one for me..this is the first time i shoot a short film and is a first time i get into cultural stuff, and first time to shoot at salak(people at the temple are super good!!!awesome)!!..

And for the actress, they looks really beautiful in that make-up and costume, i don't know how you girls feel, it is tired and the costume is tight..but i guess u already gain something from there..a chance for wearing those thing..=)

pre-production is so hard, thanks alot to klee for helping out..even when i wanted to give up this work..Pre is the hardest for me..i watch so many opera clip, and learn to sing and learn their move..until my bro say im like auntie =.= and YOYO!!!for saying its worst than 2012..

i'm not sure how it will look like at post-production, but im satisfy with production already..at least we tried..and the moment we tried, we're gaining..we're moving forward again..life is all about these right? =)

i'd like to thanks alot to kooi lee and jea hau..u both really helped out alot..from pre-pro to shooting day..in the hot sun, in that tiny space backstage..especially jhau with the heavy mark-II feeling tired for u lol

and to these people:
Desmond
Chee Wan
Chee Yang
HuiLin
Eskandar

and to:
Soo
YoYo
Hinzges
tshing
and many more..for spiritual support!!

and to the actress Angeline and Weiwei for the hard work..u both look really pretty that day

And to the cantonese opera group of Hiong jie!! fuh~~u surprise me!! ur the best !!

so i guess now its all up to me to edit it..=D
will show some pictures soon..

MetalYi

lovey dovey again

issue with snowie for so long...it's like hard to accept her getting old..but it's all back at once...

like stay outside too long, you'd want to see a face that "want you back".

hate the outside world..

knowing esk's cat pass away yesterday, because of 5 dog's attack, i feel the more i neglect snowie, i will feel very bad...things can happen in any minute..today im blogging here, tomorrow i might be gone..who knows...

sometimes i think snowie hates other dog, is because other dogs hates her..that's what lin and i felt..always..

when we bring her out last time, she used to try to get close to the dogs..but barked of by the other dogs..

today when i let her out, i witness dogs bully her..sort of...laugh at her,..that's what i feel..
my neighbour's smaller size dog watching snowie pee..for long..then bark at snowie..snowie make a crying sound..

the small dog then go in to the house, bring out the other 4-5 dogs..all bark at snowie..i don't know why all the dogs hate her..and i guess that's the only reason she don't trust dog..she's more to human..

found her old pics..that was taken when after her surgery, and check up..i don't know how i bear that pain..just looking at her leg i already feel sad..poor thing..


feel letting her sleep with me again tonight...yesterday was great...she was dam happy when i carry her mat and say "upstair"..she happy till cant make a sound..

i was tired..but i feel looking at her sleep...i remember her ears, form a "V" shape..and i feel touching it badly..

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Love you,
MetalYi

Char kuay teow!!!

YUM YUM~~~~

this is a request from miss hui lin...when she depressingly studying~~i didn't want to cook it at first...but she seems depress...without milo and spaghetti at home...like nothing to eat...so yeah...i char kuey teow for her...

She say it was really good...ask me to go char kuey teow instead of studying =.=

ABC program chef,
MetalYi

It's a COOKING day II ~~

Another cooking day~~This time, with a better pan!!!! wooooooooooooooow!!! Non-Stick at all..excited!!

So i'm not cooking in a rush anymore...this post is more like an ad for the pan huh...if can i would LOVE TO make a tvc for this pan...it's so perfect...BUT!!! after i use...and after i wash, i notice tht there's some black burned stain at the bottom...NOT MY FAULT RIGHT"???

Enjoy ~~ With your eyes~~



Because of this GREAT PAN!!! my egg, came out perfect!!!wohhooo

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*The noodle is very unhealthy actually...if u know the ingredients...but im sure, kleo's gonna like it very much...cause dam salty...3 packet of seasoning oil, 1 packet(dint use all) of chilli seasoning, 1 Packet(dint use all) of seasoning powder..other than that, i add soy sauce, and black soy sauce to make it tastier and beautiful...*

So basically, the hair will start drop tomorrow...once in a while...it's ok la!!!;P

PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY test result

It's been so long i haven't been blogging, im enjoying life don't worry, although quite busy..my lazyness ask me to "stop blogging, go listen to some songs" haahaha, so most of my free time is on the bed, muse-ing or rocking, or maybe, singing and record it to replay hahaha

Here's a psychology quiz from facebook...i'll post it here since im lazy to write already...much love =)


BLACK or WHITE
You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...
(not really...i don't have much friend..)

COFFEE or SOFTDRINKS
You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.
(half half~~)

MOON or STARS
You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”
(true true~~but i wont believe this is the one!!)

TV or RADIO
You have so many ideas in mind... You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it!
(am i??lolx)

SUGAR or SPICE
You’re a stubborn sweetheart... You “love” him/her only because he/she loves you. If his/her flame puts out, you let go with no trouble.
(very true~~)

DOGS or CATS
You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.
(yep!!)

NINJA or PIRATE
You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures!
(i don't feel im independent hehe what say you??!!)

So this quiz quite true also...hmm!!!so is it a good thing or bad thing?hahahah

so that's it...later guys!! and ya, missing YoYo..like really missing(lost) and missing(miss) lolx!!

>The Link to quiz< thanks yoyo for the link..

Much love,
Metal

Lower down your expectation....

第一次和这个马来帅哥AS合作。。还不知道接下来的路会怎样，可是，单看那天的讨论，就觉得我们应该会很难和的来吧！

星期五那天有点累，所以脑比较不能想东西。可是我第一次JOIN他们，就劲量提出意见！JYE要我加入AS他们。。我想了很久，其实也是有原因。我觉得会有沟通方面的问题。可是当讨论的时候，就渐渐发现，原来他们要的，比我要的东西来得少。

有几次我发表意见时，AS会一脸无奈，显得有些不爽。可能是我想太多吧！

不知是不是跟AJPRODUCTION太久，或被JAYA影响到，我有点走出学生要的范围。不是说自己拍的片很好。只是觉得，不管出来的东西好不好，至少要去尝试，要投本。

当天AS想的IDEA还不错，可是他想的地点，演员，都是学校，学校，又学校！我当时就不发表意见，现让他们说。可是他们就是选学校，不然就是朋友来演。我是觉得那位朋友有点老，不适合。

第一个IDEA不能用，就拍另一个。要拍路人。。AS说就SUBANG吧！我说不如选KL..那边应该景色都比SUBANG好，而且人比较多。AS当时就给我一个无奈的脸色，然后就走出课室了。

既然和他不能沟通，我很多事，都会等AS跑开后，再和另一位马来女生说。我解释为什么我不要为什么不行，我希望她会传话给AS。

说实话，我不是很想导这个片。AS是蛮有主见的人。如果我来导，一定很多事他会不喜欢。我要求的东西会比他要求的多。。一定很多CONFLICT..

老师安排我们在一起，开心的是，我不必做很多，因为他们蛮PRO.可是，我会比较希望跟一些比较没经验的人合作。

想想也好啦！他们可以帮我SAVE COST..我可以放多点心机在SHORT FILM 身上。TVC 的 FINAL， 就让他们办吧！！

希望接下来可以合作愉快咯！！

The making is now on youtube...
go to
http://youtube.com/ajproductionmy

METALYI

TVC *tink* done!!!

The most troublesome video..at the moment..is this tvc..and it's done now!!like finally!!!

it's not perfect for me yet..but i have to move on..for my next short film video..i need some time to refresh my mind..take away all the ghost festival stuff..

this Tvc's root idea was from klee..thinking of doing something related to ghost festival ON hungry ghost month is pretty funny..and scary as well..

because of this tvc, we went to kampung subang many times..almost everyone there know us d..=D
it's fun to see village like that, on certain festival, they gather around..u see faces, same faces...

i was bitten by really big ant there, and left a mark on my leg..my friend got con for a plate of noodle..but of course..other than that, people there are so nice..willing to help out..

the only thing is, too less shot!!if it didn't rain, i couldv't shoot more extra shot..then it will be easier for the editing work..

my da jie said they shooting normally will bring a bomoh along to control the rain..hahah..we didn't~~we didn't even say things like "we're here just for shooting, dont get mad"..things like that...but i know..everyone pray in heart..we are protected..

i'd say this is a troublesome video cause it often makes me wanna stay away from it..avoid seeing it..until hinzges really come to me only i start doing..

many times at the college, when doing editing, i didn't want to touch it..this is the first video that makes me don't feel wanna edit it..want to leave it there forever..and that breaks me down..i never have that kind of feeling before..

Afterall, i need to thanks to my crew, especially Klee!! helped out alot...really ALOT!!
thanks Jeahau, Hinzges, Soo, Waiheng for helping out..and to fynessa and gobury, thanks for willing to help out..it sure is tough..especially fynessa, need to knee there for so long until your knee have mark..

Hope u all enjoy the video..good or bad, just tell me or my crew..we can accept it..we're still student, and this is the best time for us to receive baddest bad comment ... really! =)



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now headache for short film!! xD

MetalYi

.....Pressure T.T

Feeling very tired today, i hope jaya won't message me..cuz he said if he don't message means no lighting class..

can say that, my dream come true, he messaged me say that no lighting class for me cause he rejected most of his student's work..

after few minutes, there's another message..i feel..i will be very scared of message tone..very scare of incoming message..it could be him anytime..

he wants my opera work to be the finest in Malaysia..ur not kidding me??finest in malaysia??im not even the best in subang hello..!!he's putting high expectation on my work...

actually can see that from his face..he's really really happy and excited when he talk to me about my work few days ago..

now i know...what is stress...at this very moment, i feel a little happy, for he did put hope on my work, and at the same, i feel really really scareeee and really stress....i haven't even do the correction on the idea..

i DID listen to bei...don't put too high hope on everything..so i was thinking, can finish this short film, already good enough for me...BUT!!!!!!!!!!!the lecturer..put high hope on me..what to do..

im shaking!!!zzzzz....scary shit@@ and my body is dam hot!!feel going to faint already..that kind of pressure...cannot take it at all..

i replied him..told him im struggling with it...hope he lower down the expectation =P

i should be doing my animation 2 now but my mind is in such a mess..and i got so panic...i need some time to chill...

i hope those VA junior won't have to face a one on one class..it's really suffer..don't know who to turn to..

MetalYi

always always always...~

can't sleep. the moment i lye on my bed, i keep thinking how to change the opera story...keep keep thinking..tried to think a better one that jaya might like...

but i still love my own story..i don't agree with jaya this time..don't know why..i want my character to be like this..and he wants like that...

normally, for better credits, i will do what lecturer ask me to do..but this time..i really got an headache..cuz i really don't know which way to turn to...this feeling sux!!!

that day's class..so suffer, but i don't get it why, jaya is so dam happy!!and excited..makes me feel smash him in the head sometimes..after class he's still excited, go out and talk HAPPILY with klee and hinz..and they see me...like im half dead, down..

is that how lecturer do??when the students gets more pressure, they get mad and go excited??he keep acting in the class..the reaction is very very big..

but i don't get it...he wants cinderella story..=(

how should i sleep then??

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Happy for u lin =D

ur 11th month...with esk..good good...u guys have go this far..its not easy...know u can't wait for ur first anniversary..

yesterday was ur 11th month..u don't seem happy when we're out with esk..just for little thing...u asked me, if it's u and bei last time, will u be angry?

i will say ya i will..but i didn't..i feel different guy..cannot judge like that..esk has been a real good guy!!!so just forget bout it..

see see!! u wasted one whole day to enjoy nicely with esk...ur more like enjoying with me huh..haha!!

i feel ur anniversary should make it big big big...go somewhere further ya!!but u dun have to worry..i believe in esk...he will make it unforgetable!!

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T-shirt!!!!FINALLY REACH U YOYO!!!!

i don't know if ur really happy or surprise...cause u've seen bei's blog after all..

and its just a t-shirt...hope ur not acting like what i told u the day before ya...dun learn from me..hahah

that t-shirt..i'll tell you how the idea comes up..and why all the other years u got no pressie and this yr so special..

i remember that day, u told me u perasan that ur fren backstab u..yeh perasan moi!!!ur always like that...and u seems to be very gan jeong bout ur bday...

that time, ur frens, ur "you know who", seems like not planning to celebrate with you..

tht time can feel u disappointed...plus i can't sleep at night..keep thinking what to do for ur bday...i suddenly thought of t-shirt..with wordings..maybe ur name or sumthing..

next day i get lin and esk to discuss bout it..esk already check price and all..lin say put young picture and all...so design..is from lin xD

hope u like it...that pic we choose very long d...dam cute!!!so forget bout the rm5 rantai ok!!!!hahaahah

the t-shirt is more like surprise to me really...cuz i really wanna do it very much...lin told me on monday, saying tht can't do anymore...ask me forget bout it..and i sadly agree with her..

then she suddenly take out the t-shirt..like its a surprise for me..i really scream there d...TOO CUTE!!!!!

"we always got your back"...that's for real...we stay apart..but we always got ur back..even we're at subang =p

MealYi

5 types of guys to avoid

GIRLS Check this out!!Funny, yet so true~~

5 Types of Guys to Avoid at All Costs

(yahoo)

我错了！对不起！

真的很烦。已经有一种无法控制自己的感觉。还真希望，会突然失意，然后重新做人，重新交朋友，重新认识新的自己。

现在的生活，真的好像很没有意义。想出去，又不敢踏出第一步。所以每一天，都躲在家里。真的想去旅游，吸些新鲜空气。

现在已经不想约人了，被拒绝就会觉得是自己的错。像昨天游戏里没人理，就觉得自己错了。没说话，就不会被ignore。。

真的很不开心。可是要说是为什么，还真的说不出。问题是自己，自己就是那个鬼。

时常会到处跟朋友说我不开心，已经觉得自己说的次数太多。自己都觉得烦！朋友们因该觉得更烦吧。我不会再说了。。

现在就想说声对不起。我错了！

yes, the hug!!

It's like...i'm WAY TOO BORED..and i've been playing hero game since afternoon...so i see what else i can click on on the computer...

Skype..hmm..log on and dam i saw pall'. didn't know i miss him so much...he's been a really good "heart to heart" pal since last time..and he never will forget me...so am i...

it's been a depressing day..and i suddenly miss the feeling...of those skype days~~

Pall' is so surprise i got into film and animation..i think my words can actually make him jump LoLx..

he never stop saying "u took me by surprise", or "im so surprise"..

maybe i really look not that tough for a person to believe i can jump into this field haha

i know i always lack of so much confidence..and i will remember your words..

"[10:10:46 PM] Páll says: so promise me that you wont let anything distroy your confidence
[10:11:38 PM] Páll says: so be openminded and self critical .... but learn and get going"

and yeah, if ur here, i will let u give me a big hug..cuz i feel giving u a big hug too..miss u too much

im in the toughest progress here. and the progress makes me fear to think of my next short film..

but i will try my best!!and act as i already receive your hug!!

thanks for all the support guys!!
thanks Pall

MetalYi

It's a COOKING day~~

no lunch again...=|

i feel wanna fry noodle, but look at the pan for so long, think of the progress...lazy shit..

but after i cook noodle, gas open, oil ready..=p im gonna fry noodle!!

it's not too bad..i mean the taste..lin say nice =P

and the progress...is like sweat sweat!!

i don't remember when is the last time i cook..it's like so rush??i cook like mad cow!!

can't believe i suddenly can't cook already...=(

when the noodle is almost done, the pan is almost "done" too..kinda..errr...stick pan and black..then my brother shout from the computer room say "going to burn d"..

i feel asking him to shaddap!!!his so far and he know whats happening...dam him!!

ahaha the moment i put in the noodle, my brother say "wah smell nice" and after just few minutes, it become "it's burning already".

it's dirty everywhere, cuz i'm cooking like a mad cow..!!so i have to clean up everything before i eat..see..the progress, sure makes people lazy to cook...

and awww...my sis came back at the right time, (she wants me to clean snowie's poo =.=) and i keep dragging her to try my noodle..


she like it..she say its looks ugly but nice..then i let boy try it..he say nice..awwwwwwwww~~~~~happie~~~

i wanted to let my dad try..don't dare =( but i know he sure like it..cause it's very salty!!

Maggie Goreng!!=P with novel and bread at the back >.<

PaniC attack!!

i think it's because of game..i'm sick..that "air war" CF until 5am..make my life turn upside down...

i can't believe i still can CF just now..

now i've lost my sleep..even im super tired..

everything i dream of, even it's just normal dreams, make me feel scare..i will get panic..was it panic?

i don't know, i just feel those things that happen in dream, are so real, and big, and loud..

it definitely distract my brain..after one dream, i will wake..

then i can't sleep..

and now i got flu, headache, and really heatty...

after effect of castle fight..=.=

MetalYi

..because i need you..

i was..very happy this morning..when i think of showering snowie, that she will smells great, i feels good..

today i don't feel any lazyness in me..

but when i shower snowie, i feel she's different, i don't know how to describe that..but just different..i wet myself, hand full with soup, slipped the shower pipe, it turns one round, and it wet my face, just right after i wet my face the finger press the "pause" button and water goes off..

i was shock at that time..what im doing? and snowie, that brat, look at me, for the first time after we enter the toilet..it's like she know something..

after i stun for a while, i fix the pipe position and start showering her again, then i suddenly laugh, that was embarrasing..haha

after that she never look at me again..i begin to feel pissed with her, she's not a good girl today..shower time, i mean..i need to pull her so hard to shower her..have to be so rude to her..

after shower, she normally walk into my hands, with the tower..but today she don't..she look at the tower for long time..don't dare to walk forward..end up i have to pull her..

i don't know whats wrong with her..

My mom soon came back, ask me if her wound is ok, cause there's been blood on the floor, no one have period, no one is bleeding, and snowie's period is over..lin suspect its coming out from the wound..

i checked her wound, i;m not so sure about it, but i see dried blood..i guess its her..for some reason, my soul left..i can't concentrate drying her, i don't feel brushing her fur..i feel really sad..

i suddenly thought of what my bro told me.."if u pray for a dog, it will die faster, that's to end their "creature" life and get a new life"...that's what the sifu said to him..

i prayed for her everynight, and she wants it..everytime i light a candle, she will hop on to me, wants me to carry her and pray..

what i wish for, is her to be healthy..i need her very much..

perhaps im thinking too much..but from how she react today, really worries me..when i told lin bout this, the tears just keep coming out..i don't want her to go..

and i wont let her pray from today onwards..i don't care if lin's gonna make her pray or not..but me, definitely no...i cannot take it if she leaves me..she's the reason i live..i want her..


MetalYi

又一天！！

今天又和MEX出去了。。这次是和他的一些朋友。。大部分都是我认识的。。我们看SURROGATE。。还真好看叻。。

其实我蛮吓到我妹。。就突然和一大班出去，而且是临时MEX约的。。一约我就去。。很爽快！！

这样蛮爽的嘛！！至少我的拜五不是闷在家无所事事。。早睡又半夜醒来。。酱的拜五，不如把我杀了吧！！哈哈！！

突然用华语，其实就想学会打快一点，因为桂丽谈心事时，都爱用华语咯！！看我为你学叻！！哈哈。。

下次就试下用华语和你谈心事吧！！

今天整天就是呆在家，闷死，还逃课，更闷。。哈哈。。晚上有人约还好，要不然就惨！！

SURROGATE真的是一部很不错的片子。。我还蛮喜欢它的故事内容，只是有时会有点不明白，要想很久才分析得出来。。你们看的人要注意注意它的MAKE-UP，做得很好！！真的有料！！

今天特别累，心也有点痛，我EQ太低了，就为小小事情伤到心，可是出去后好了一些。。现在只是有点累，可是想玩GAME哦！！没人ONLINE。。YOYO又生病`。。算了，还是读书然后睡觉吧。。

晚安咯！！

美德仪（哈哈）=P

Call, call??

Another sleepless night...oh no...should say, i'm awake...=|

fate .. im not allowed to sleep at 10pm..

this is the consequences..

now i don't know what to do..

i knew..i will wake..so i keep my eyes close..don't wanna wake..

but my sister came in..i heard her saying "eskandar" very loud..

i thought she talk in dream..curiosity kills..

i open my eye a little to peep what she's up to..

great! she's put her mouth near to the phone and repeat "eskandar" again..

must be some caller thing...

i tried to sleep back..then i heard "er jie"..and then "da jie"..

i'm like wtf??is it that fun??

after im back from the toilet, i check my phone..one missed call, from my sister..

then i knew what she's doing already..trying to call others using her voice lol

i find it quite cute..but yeah, im awake =|

as for now, i'm so scare i can't wake tomorrow morning for jye's class..

and i don't know how's the editing..i hope i can do it tomorrow with hinz..

i know it wont turn out to be perfect =(

but will try my best to do it..

AND i'm hungry!!!
always like that =.=

Black eyed pease - meet me halfway

Fell in love with this song...do u think its worth buying ??? =PP



I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes, I'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, what's up, it use to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes I'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl what's up, what's up, what's up, what's up

Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Girl, I travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galexies
Just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl I want, I, I, I want you right now
I travel uptown (town) I travel downtown
I wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway... way

Can you meet me half way (I'll meet you halfway)
Right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and I (just you and I)
I will fly, I'll fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
I will try, until I die, for you and I, for you and I, for for you and I,
For for you and I, for for you and I, for you and I

Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

i want to....

Suddenly, feel wanna play the sims..lazy to download..suddenly, feel wanna play shooting game..left 4 dead..? suddenly feel going out..

feel doing so many things suddenly..but din't do any of them...lifeless shit..

end up playing games on facebook..

oh at least im downloading "my sister's keeper"...half way there =P

i wanna buy the long skirt...i wanna buy that long pants...argh..stupid..

i wanna drink...

sigh...what a bored day..

To Darren~

darren, i'm not trying to make u down..what i wanna say is, look at those people around you, you think they look good?everyone have their own story, many more people are living in hell, many ppl have harder life than yours..

you are not a sick child, you can move, you can talk, you're not deaf or mute..if you think what u tell me is the only way to solve the problem, if u think there's no people who really care for you, then just do what you want...

all the while im trying to make you happier, i know living alone outside is hard, especially when you're alone..that is the matter of whether u want to work it out or not...if you think destroying it will be the best way, do it...

worst to worst your family and people who loves u will cry for few days..at that time, no one will feel pity for you, u will make your family feel sorry, feel guilty, if that's what u want, hurt them..hurt them hard then...

i used to be like you, where i just think of suicide suicide suicide, but think about it, when i was born, i got pneumonia, after pneumonia, i got epilepsy...everytime i suffer, i wanna die..but one thing..what bout my parents??they paid for all my medical bills...for what??they wannt me to live good...

everything is the same..same goes to you...if there's a reason to die, there will be a reason to live..my family, is the reason for me to live..snowie, is my reason to live..

maybe you don't have now..but don't u have a dream??u don't want anything??ur satisfy with your life now?

im sure u dont...cause that is your REASON to die...but i dont see that...i will laugh at u if u die...you give up so easily...demon is in you darren...we don't play the game this way..we don't lose the game and we die...

look at those people that suffer from sickness and earthquake..they are not even given the chance to control their life...and u are here, telling me u want to give it up to god...god wont even keep ur fucking dead body...

think about it darren, i say all this cause i treat u as friend, i care for you..even i havent seen u in real before...you're just a game friend...but i will say this to every person who see life and death so easily..

i don't care if ur fooling with those words or really mean it...i just hate it when people say that...

sorry if this don't make u happy..i just want u to be well..anything u still can come for me..bye..!!

your friend,
MetalYi

Tired day~

Today, is a really tiring day..

i woke up having seizure, i see the time, and im like "no wonder im having seizure, 12sumthing and i havent take medicine".

i slept too well that i can't hear any alarms. everytime when i have seizure, i want to skip class..and for another reason that makes me wanna skip is...the script..im so afraid that he will reject it..i was hoping, that today's media study wont have practical..

and shoot!!Practical is today's assignment..i can't concentrate at all..i ammm tired!!!...i stood there..look at the teamates discussing..i nod and nod..but i don't get it at all..

i get teh ice from make hot aunty..that makes me feel better..and i think my teammates will find me annoying...cuz after the discussion, i go forward and ask him.."what u plan to do?" and he have to start from the very beginning..

seriously, i don't doubt your skill..i think you guys are quite smart really...and i know that..u guys wanna save time..

i suggest a rehearsal, is not gonna waste ur time..it will actually save more time..

so we did a rehearsal which doesn't look like a rehearsal, im pretty satisfy with you all cause we can still talk..

after class, i rush to meet up with mex..didn't really rush..just too excited cuz the class is finally over..

you said i looks sad..actually im just tired..really..and it;s becuz i told u that's why u feel i look sad..im ok =)

i wanted to watch it..sorority row? im like...hmm...i don;t know...feel watching, and don;t ready yet LoL..

sorry to make u late for the movie..next time movie on me =P and thanks for the very belated birthday meal..

i shall........................game a while and sleep xD

MetalYi

醒了，彻底的醒了！

i know what is wrong now..

know how to pick it up, must learn how to put it down..

i thought im letting go of it, two days after the breakup, i really learned to let it go already..

after that two "peaceful" day, he called up..

after he call up i feel extremely bad, not feeling so good about everything..

after reading the blog...hmm..what i can say is.."u got me"!! that was the first time i cry after the break up..

the next day i talked to yo and lin..was thinking of should i work it out?

what they say is, "follow your heart"..

i never know, i'm like some kind of bitch who break people's heart, and honestly telling here, want it back..

i'm living in that kind of situation, which, i already don't know what i'm thinking and what i'm doing..

if only you leave me alone, i'd be fine..

i'm the bitch..i tried to ask you out..mannnn....twicee my dear twice!!! got rejected, ok maybe for him it don't sound like reject..

actually it's not a reject..not a direct reject, but god!! this two "reject" actually wakes me up..

i'm like "WHAT IM DOING?"

i break it off, and i want it back??

i don't want it to be like that...im awake now..i wont do anything foolish anymore..

ok, a sudden bad feeling, and then relief..

being reject is aweful, but yeah, it wakes me up..i'm glad it does..stupid yi!!!

MetalYi

Change of time~

what a waste of time..

woke early in the morning..i received a long message..which looks like a !warning! message..

a message from my sister, saying my dog have constipation..ask me to wake early and shower her..

i got up at 12pm..and i quickly get down to see snowie...(i drop my god dam phone) =(

i bath her..and im exhausted...i didn't sleep well..

my lecturer msged me, asked me to go at 3pm..im abit angry with that...he thought i'm like free whole day??i mean yeah im free whole day but don't keep change time will you??

so...i message him after i fetch lin from college..i asked him to make it tomorrow =P

i dion't wanna go just to show him paperwork and come back...im not wrong right??

im still having stomach ache..sigh...lin and i accompany snowie =(

MetalYi

Sleepless night

It's another sleepless night...

Bei, i don't think that blogging is a waste of time..don't worry..; about today, it's ok about it, its not that you don't want to accompany me..it's the job..no problem..

sometimes u have to listen to what the aunty and uncle say =P it sure helps alot....

but still...i hate being rejected,..=P next time u ask me out better...hahaha

right now, i am sooooooo soooooooooooo tired...i see your status away...my other friends are not online..so...just be a moron for one night..know ur not there...but talk to you...

i guess im meant to sleep late every night..

i went to bed at 10something...slept at 10 something..i already know, that i will wake at 12..cuz im meant to sleep late hahah...

indeed, i wake at 12 something...forced myself to go back to bed, but i can't..i feel like watching a movie, but sooo lazy to go in to my da jie room and SEARCH (that's a big progression) for disc i wanna watch..

i wanted to on pps and watch the chermain movie..the one i keep saying i wanna watch..but! im afraid that i will watch till the next morning...

so here i am...blogging, and playing mini games on facebook..

~~~im hungry =(

it happens every night, i wake up in the middle of the night, i come down to online, after that i will stand in the kitchen for long time..thinking to eat or not to eat...

sigh~~

i was thinking just now...tomorrow is actually not like a class..since there's only one student, which is me...the class will end very early..

but theres many types to end the class, either he will say ur story is lame, without looking at the script, ask me to go back redo, or, he will read the whole thing, confirm he will criticise..

or, he might say i don't like..so bye bye!

hopefully he accept what i do...and thanks for your support my dear..it means alot..

i watched video of tourrette syndrome today..they're pity..tics sure is killing them..i feel so sad for them..but one thing...after watching the video, do i love myself more??

hmm..i guess a LIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEE BIT MORE...xD

im tiredddddddddddd~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i'll continue with my game i guess..night!

MetalYi

OMG

After so long holiday..tomorrow i'm gonna be back at college and meet "him" again...

that kind of fear..wow..it's like so long..and im so scare to be one on one with him =[

what if he rejects my idea???

i print out everything...except the shooting script..i don't feel going to do any printing..

i feel like wanna sleep..but if i sleep..i will wake at 10pm..then i wont be able to sleep anymore..

sigh...tomorrow....

i should start doing my animation now..

for some reason that i dont know..i'm not doing it..

just a random post anyway..

Cheers to all,
MetalYi

What i'm doing?

6th day after the break up

everything seems normal again.. until u called up and ask about my day..

i feel so worry..because you don't sound good to me..

Today will be my last day to post about break up stuff..

i don't think it's good to mention the sad moment always..don't you feel annoying?

6th day after the break up, it feels like it happened yesterday..
i took out my diary and the card u gave me on my birthday..

after i see the thing you wrote me, i suddenly thought of the little note i wrote for you and stuffed it in your car..

i wonder, where is it..

I really don't want to talk about all this anymore..either it end up happy or sad..just let it be..

i know you still can't help to see me..i don't know about next time..maybe you won't be seeing me forever..i don't know...just let it be natural then..

3:44am
MetalYi

single again ...

5th day after the break-up

i'm getting used to it now..the days without you..

might think of him sometimes..when i have nothing to do...

but i will go blur..all the time..the mind go blank..

stun there..

people might find you stupid or ugly like that..but if u get to feel it yourself, it's one kind of enjoyment..

let go the thoughts, so blank, so enjoy..satisfying..

5th day after the break-up..it's like just yesterday..im holding your hands..

just like what i said yesterday..perhaps i should contact u lesser..it really did give me the better feeling..

but of course..still wonder sometimes..how u feeling now?are you good?

old one goes and new one will come..

i will go out more often if i can..

what's good is, im starting to get used to the single life now..

im back =)



MetalYi

what was it like?when we used to be?

4th day after break up...

trying to be like days where we used to be?like the closest friend ever??

think harder, we used to be like closest friend? we flirt alot..i was in love with him..he doesn't know that..

so how could we be like that now??

it would be better if we don't talk..after i talked to him...i feel bad every night..

i couldn't imagine what it will be like if i see him standing in front of me..

4th day after break up...
i feel so uneasy. it feels so bad to hurt a person. especially a person u don't wanna hurt.

i know how its like now.

and if i get to choose, i rather be the one to get hurt, then me hurting the person.

i was thinking, maybe im thinking too much. perhaps he's ok now? maybe watching tv, having fun, or sleeping well.

while i..stupidly thinks that i hurt him?


4th day after break up...it feels like its just yesterday..

i want everything good..

i was suppose to be doing my paperwork now..but i only done the first page. which is only 2 paragraph.

im feeling so worry..why is that?i hate that..

im blogging here..im not suppose to blog..my mind is so blank after my last conversation with him..

im fucked..

heart and the brain, they are enemies. they never goes the same way. dont u think human, normally follow the brain?

i'm not sure about that. but at the moment, i hate my heart, and at the same time, my brain, too..

i start to lost my mind already. it needed time to find back my way. my heart? i feel it..hard..it won't get numb this few days..it just keep bugging me...

MetalYi

Day 2, not too bad =)

2nd day after the break up, how i feel...hmm...actually quite good..i don't know how he feel..maybe still not too well but act like he's ok?

still, we talk like normal already, i don't get mad for silly little thing..i joke with you openly at gg, and so as u..

even lin feels that the "previous" beiyan is back again..."that's his style" she would say that..

and i told her, i am back too..she agree with that..

i don't know how u feel..i don't dare to ask that..of course im happy to see u talk like that...we can still talk..at least its a peaceful break up...im glad =)

i see u tried to cheer me up today when im down..it didn't really worked but i did feel better..

bei ah bei...that's why i say, we can do it..even we're not together..just look at today's progress, don't u feel it;s good?better then when we're together??

im a sucky gf, and u..akhem..ur a sucky bf too..xD don't get mad..just telling the truth..sucky sucky people cant work out...unless....i can always talk and react like today...

So!!that's the end of 2nd day..it's been quite good for me..well, im JUSTTTT A LITTLE bit curious how u feel but im not gonna ask =)

day 2, good, oh other than losting thumbdrive and have to redo animation stuff, i'm very fine..

and i hope, you're fine too..if u have problem, come to me..if i have problem..erm..i'll go to you..IF ur noot using 014 =P

i don't feel sleeping...i always feel that sleeping is gonna waste my day..hmmp!!!!well i'll wish u guys a happy night night then...and sleep tight!!

05:30am,
MetalYi

To you, and my old self..

it's been a hard night..didn't want to give up. but it's not working. everytime the issue come, you say we can settle it/ u can change.

i changed u too much. i AM selfish, i don't deny that. i want you to know me yourself. i want you to be the ideal lover i want. which, is so wrong.

we can actually see from the attitude, we are no match. the time i worked out so much for this relationship, u didn't do anything. and now i want to be the selfish one..the one that sit and wait for u to do everything to me.

i am hard to get along. i knew it well. i want/expect more than i could. and that is why, when u disappoint me, i will hold your hand, feel sorry for you, to have me, to go over all this shit.

sometimes u would get angry, i know why is that. but still, i refuse to say a thing. and that goes on. quiet for days.

it's not that i want a 100% perfect guy that stays next to me all the time. at least, a guy that care for me, not like he don't care what i have done. a guy that know what im thinking, a guy that will make me happy when im down.

just like last time, u always cheer me up. i love that. u said u rush home online, actually me too..im always looking for your name when i got online..cause i know after the bad day, you're gonna make me happy again.

when u wait for your gf at 4am..i faked that i can't get to sleep. and wait with you.

our path to this relationship, is a chaos, and when we are together, things gotten worst. i don't know how you think about me.

day by day, i feel the road has come to an end, but i didn't say anything, cause i promise, let it end naturally.

after yesterday, i feel that i have to settle it down. for u and me, can recover soon. i feel wasted, of course i do, i miss it, really miss it. but im not mad at that moment i make my decision. i couldn't sleep whole night. lin's been toking to me. helping me. she's worry too. she can see the changes of me when im with you.

i can't deny..what i can do is nod and nod and say "ur right lin". of course, i talked to klee..and the same thing.."ur right".

but one thing, i didn't break because of other people's advice. i'm chill, i keep my mind clear.

u thought me many things. i know myself better, i know who i want, what kind of people i like and dislike.

just give yourself some time. i know you can get over it. the word "break up" is strong, hard to accept.

but just imagine, if ur like yesterday and day before yesterday. we didn't talk much. slowly, there will be a "cut" for the line that connect me to you.

you're a smart guy, u know what im saying. and u know what will happen if we keep it going like how we used to be..we never change..never will..we're no longer meant for each other.

of course i still hope, that we can be very good friends. i can still talk to you, solve your problems, share the fun. believe me, compare to a gf, a close friend, is easier to talk to..like how we used to talk. if you're not happy, we can still hang out.

the following day, will be the day to cure our wound. make ourself normal again. make myself happy to see u online and talk openly with u..game with you.

i still love you, but no longer as your girl. i'll keep it inside me..as day pass by, it will slowly fade away..then u won't be suffer for long.



your selfish friend,
MetalYi

thanks to all~

This year's birthday, i got three cake..thanks to my friends and family..i had surprise, for the first time..thanks to you guys who actually give in so much..it's a memorable birthday gift to me..

i don't know what to write, i don't know how ugly is my reaction on that day, but i had fun..thanks all =) love you guys!!

MetalYi

Back to MYself..

it's been a while since i last movie alone..

i told in game..i wanna watch movie today..since i get no calls and msg to confirm, i decide not to wait..

i already hate the feeling of waiting..very spontaneous..i bath, i get changed, then i go out..

i spent so much time searching for "against medical advice" at MPH subang parade..at the same time looking for other books...

and i spent so much time...after i found the book, thinking whether to buy or not?cash or credit card..lol

after i bought the book, i bought muse's latest album at rock corner..i always wanted that..lin said she wanna buy as my bday present..i can't wait already =P so i buy it first..

my knee is not that pain already, so i walked around subang parade..

on the way home, i was thinking of movie..do i actually sound lonely if i watch alone?i don't wanna think about it..maybe u ran out of battery, i don't know..but i guess there's public phone everywhere..if there's no calls, means plan cancel..

i watched uglytruth..quite nice..but hey kepos, don't have to look at me one kind even im watching alone right?

after movie, hungry, but i'm lazy to drive..forget bout food..feel slimmer already xP

im feeling so good..finally, i can get back slowly, to my previous life..i want it back badly, not that i will die if i dint get a call. i won't care about that now..

come to think of it, im stupid and childish, a guy need space..i know i can't give it..but i guess now i can, release slowly..i wont think, i wont get mad, i'll just get used to my life without u slowly right now..and i think i can do it..it worked well today..and im proud of myself =D

MetalYi

where's my sleep?

4am...lost my sleep...

i think im'ma sleep at errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr 5 something??aww that's bad...

im sleepy when i face the com...but when i go up...ish!!!wide awake~

and im hungry =(

pathetic! it sucks!

MetalYi

Whole moody day~

It's been a really bad day!mood is bad..everything is bad..i might have treat some of you bad too..

i remember someone said, if im down then he will be there to cheer me up..haha!very funny..

i feel this guy is hiding from me..cause my mood is really bad...ok..i can understand that..who knows what might happen if he tries to comfort me...

weird thing is...he never tried..i was thinking deep just now...do i really need him??

i suddenly feel my heart aching...after so long...i've been pulling back the feelings..even when we get together...

and i feel that it's deeper already..i feel that maybe i should stop..

if i keep it in this way..i might ruin myself, and ruin his life..

he don't know me..i don't know him..was thinking..actually how i know him?what bout his past?i never really ask bout that...and i never intend to ask..i don't know why..

i wanted to let go just now...but i keep it...i still feel letting go...

for now..i will smile! chill...!!! i decided to pull back..pull back everything..so u wont feel hurt even he can't satisfy you! =)

i remember the day we fight..and the next day, lin said, i thought u will tell me u both already broke up. haha i actually thought so too..

it's becuz it's too normal for us..we are two person from two different world..two different aspect..

we can't understand each other..i can't make u feel good when ur down..u can't do it either..

that's why problem comes out every week...

time to game!!ciao !!



MetalYi

Let lose, don't think so..

i never tried so hard, and i never cried so hard..

social, is harder than what i expect..

i never thought i can be like that..

few days, my busy life, my social life..

i see people, i put on my fake smile..

for few days, i've been really sick, pissed that i'm weaker than the others..

for few days, i face them, i face people, with the smile, and thoughts, talks, u never seen before..

but when? do i really enjoy it?

i told myself, i can do it for sure..it's easy..

after few days, i break down and cry, cuz i talk, cause i face all, cuz i wanna work thngs out, cuz i don't want people to think im WEAK..

i'm very tired, im really tired..a person that don't meant to walk this way, is walking it..

i thought i can, but the time i stepped into the house, i feel lost..where is my past life?

i walked into the room, lin's sleeping..i want to talk, i want to find someone who can talk to..

i text my boy, he's sleeping..i text my ji mui, she had the same problem, she know me, she know me well..i wanted to call..yoyo, i wanna talk..but the awful sound of cry, stopped me..

i hope, if any friend see this, don't ask..

my eye sore..if i sleep now the next day is going to be a fucking day..

if i have a chance, i wanna ask myself, can i go back? but time is pushing me forward..

i wanted to take a break badly, i wanted to lock myself in the room badly, not to sleep, but to relax..i just need it..

to friends, i apologize, if i did wrong..

to friends, i apologize, if i'm too quiet..

to friends, i apologize, if i disappoint u..

to people who care, i apologize, i'm weak..

to people who care, i apologize, i'm not good enough..

i'm thinking, did i made the right choice taking video and animation?it's not just making video..now i learned it..

i never expect that..i will break down and cry so hard, because im tired..

i am tired..



MetalYi

Finally!! - Break down

can i say "breath" out loud???

it's like finally!!!!!!!!!we're done!!!with our shooting..i'm really glad we made it..

it's been a really busy week..i don't even have the time to check mail and facebook..now the mail box is flood..xD

i never been this busy before...to be honest..it's like everything packed together..and we can't let go even one small things..no matter how busy we have to do it all..

now i know what people say is true..a person get too busy will fall sick..i din't go to work today..cuz i really AM sick..

if u want me to rate the job..i will rate it 1star over 5..i don't like..but since i already accept to do it i HAVE to do it..

i wanna tell klee..i didn't make it there..is not by purpose..i am not as strong as u maybe..i really cant stand..tired and headache after shooting..

yes, i admit at work i told lin i wont go on sunday, but after finish work, i changed my mind..i told everyone there i go..even the "shorty"..i say wont ffk to him..but i really cant make it...sorry to u and brendam/brandon watever...

didn't online for so long time..i became so lazy to go online..suddenly terbalik with days last time..*lazy to go out*..now lazy to go online..and i miss YOYO!!!!MISS YOU MAN!!!!LIKE ALOT U KNOW!!!sometimes will think of u when im outside busying..

actually those busy days are quite enjoying..rush here and there..and been to Kampung subang for so many times that i think everyone there can recognise us..and someone tot im astro star!!HAHAHAH funny sial..

people there are so kind..oh but the indians there are quite scary..they like to go out with motor then talk..feel dangerous haha..

if people would ask me about subang village first thing i will think of the shop, then the people, and one young couple..they're always out..walking hand in hand..so dam sweet..they're like..just teenage??i think..

even late at night..they will walk out..with dogs around them..dam cun..!!

there's so many thing i can't say in one post..+ i dam sick..+ i need to prepare tomorrow's homework..will continue next time..

MetalYi

change it BACK...

Back at subang...many issue comes...that is why i hate it here..

after class today i meet jaya eye to eye..i mean...face to face =P he made me down...homework stuff..it's..not hard..but just feel down..he doesn't seem to have much confident on me ekh..!!

i feel like wanna punch..punch punch punch...my heart don't feel well..im angry...angry!!!

im glad that we finally sort out the Tvc for ghost festival..one down!!!tomorrow class cancel..means i don't have to rush animation today...

what is snowie thinking?????she didn't look very happy when i come back..she didn't rush out for me when i come home..didn't jump on me...(im really sad)

as usual...when i go upstairs..she followed me..but this time..looks abit different..when i look into her eyes..i feel that she see me like a stranger..i really hate that feeling..all the time she's been looking at the door..wants to go out i guess...im SUPER SAD OK!!!!

i know i neglected her in the pass few days..i didn't really touch her..didn't say goodnight and love you before i go to bed...didn't kiss her forehead and play catching...

did she really forget how we used to get along??just because i didn't really touch her in the pass few days??argh!!!my bad snowie..i deserve it...!!

it wont be long..i believe...we will be good again after today...since im back and everything;s back to normal again..i will do my daily routine..play with her..say goodnight and love u before i slp..give her snacks..etc...

don't forget how we used to get along =)

Your sister,
MetalYi

penang pictures coming soon

The last night

Last day at yoyo's house~~

feeling sad~~awww~~

going back...makes me feel no freedom...i'm far from bei...yet i still feel cool with it...

here at bukit mertajam(penang)...is HEAVEN!!!....food food food...i ate food of one month in two days..

went to capture some video of people praying for the ghost festival...i feel not enough...i was thinking..i'd be great if i hold the college cam in my hand xD

after i go back...everything will back to normal again...more busy i guess..

have to gather for discussion at 2pm..rush back rush back!!!then have class at 330pm..after class gotta rush my animation for the next day's class..

i miss snowie soooooooo muchhhhh...i think she misses me too?xD
i havent been touching her for days...neglected her since the first day im here at penang...that day when the family goes back..i see her in car...i feel dam sad...i only kissed her at the last minute..ish!!!angry with myself now!!

i miss her soo much..i must do something when i get back...hope she still loves me hahah..

Last night at penang,
MetalYi

Love test~~

Meh!!!!i post cause i saw yoyo post xD

it's a quiz from facebook!

http://apps.facebook.com/lv_test/

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You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house. There are two roads to get there. One is a straight path to take you there quickly, but very boring. The other is significantly longer but is full of wonderful sights and interesting things. Which one do you take to get to your significant other's house, short or long?

1. The road represents your attitude towards falling in love. You chose the short road. You fall in love quickly and easily.

On the way you see two rose bushes. One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend of any one color or two color combination. What number of white and/or red do you pick?

2. The numb...er of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return. You give 50% and expect 50% in return.

i thought it'd be nicer that way~~

You finally get to their house. A family member answers the door. You can have the family member get your boy/girlfriend or go get them yourself?

3. This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems. You like to get the person yourself. You are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately.

You go up to your boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed?

4. The placement of the roses determines how much you like seeing your boy/girlfriend. You place the roses by the windowsill. You are alright with not seeing him/her so often.

Later, it's time for bed. You and your boy/girlfriend sleep in separate rooms. In the morning when it's time to wake up, you go into his/her room and check on him/her. When you arrive, do you prefer him/her to be awake or asleep?

5. This represents your attitude towards his/her personality. You prefer the person to be asleep, you love the person the way s/he is.

Now it's time to go back home. Do you take the short, plain or more interesting road?

6. The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone. You chose the short road. You fall out of love easily.

NVM!!!xD

My My~~not a really good night huh~

i wanted to say "nvm" again =.=

not so sure why i care so much bout the first month...actually it's nothing right??life still goes on...until 2030 (es said we gonna die xD)....---correction: 2013...4 years more ur gonna die with me xD

Metalyi

so crazy!!!

not like he gonna do that to me~~
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Back to today's class..it's...it's...definitely better then last weeks..i'm still scare of this lecturer tho..even he's smiling when he talks to me..wow..quite charming huh...!!AKHEM!!!nahhhhhhhh....dun think tht way hahaha

i got more idea of shooting a short film today...there's some image appear in my mind..but i still can't catch it all..i hope i can shoot something good to show him..show him that i'm good..i'm quiet but im good..i'm afraid of him but im still good..

know its gonna be hard..
i want to do something..but my brain is stuck..i can't think of a shit..!!!He tries to help me..i know he is giving me few ideas today..but i don't wanna use his idea..i want a fresh one..by using his idea will only make me feel more stress..

if i get stress surely i can't impress him xD

He taught and explain to me today..but i can't focus..i look at him and keep nod only..but my mind is thinking how come they won't let jye teach everything..hahahah...but i can see that they both have different idea..

i was so afraid that after class i said a soft "bye" and ran out of the class..quickly press the lift button...even when i go in the lift i hope he wont be at the same lift with me hahahah...THAT'S SO OVER!!!oh im kinda sad he din say bye to me xD

i gotta stop it...or im gonna feel suffer for the rest of his classes..

i used to be piano teacher wad~~xD

CrazyMetalYi

it's the first month babe!!!

we're going through one month bei!!!!yesh!!!happy!!!first month is very important..sumore my attitude like that...u can stand it for one month...i should give you a big trophy-best patient trophy..hahaha

since we're both broke..we won't know where to go tonight..well..just see what we can do then..

i still hate ur job anyway xP

Love you,
MetalYi

One Day @ Pasar Seni

is it a friend's outing or senior's graduation showcase??hahah not very sure...

i'm really happy that i DID went to the showcase..actually the day jye asked us if we going..i hesitate..i don't feel going..but since klee going..and i dont wanna let the lecturer see im a "stay home all day" girl..i say "YES"

so i chosen the right choice..the only different thing is..lecturer forget to register for us and we're not going with bus..daddy don't know that xD

it was my first time to be there..i never been there before..

i don't find ther showcase VERY interesting..but get to go out with you guys for like one day is pretty cool!!

and for the first time people will walk past and say "cam whore" to us..i never took so many picture in my lifetime =D and u guys are crazy xD

i've been friend with klee for very long but we never took a picture before..yesterday is the first time..interesting hahah..

hey YOYO!!!!i saw something that i really want to buy for you at pasar seni...it's a shin chan shitting and reading comic..head shaking..klee and i both agree that it looks so much like u...HAHAH..but i remember u have so many stuff in your car..so i didn't buy it..

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Klee, i'm glad u went to movie with us..i really think u and me should go for more movie..or we wont improve =)



MetalYi

Another day ~

just bath snowie..and as usual..drinking coffee and blogging now..

feeling a little tired..but don't feel wasting the time on the sofa..

tried to train snowie to fetch..arhh..so hard..hahaha...

i rolled the paper i going to throw..snowie's looking at it..so i was thinking..how good if she can help me throw it everytime..

i tried to train her to hold the rolled paper..she did it..BUT!!!there's always a but..hahah..she don't understand what im saying..she starts playing with the rolled up paper..

she's playing with it like a ball..i took it away and throw it myself..she looks kinda sad hahah...i guess it just need time..and plan...xD

So here's another day..i think im'ma spend my night time gaming =\ although i feel watching orphan so much...lin's going to party..what to do...

Wie's fur...looks like feather~

MetalYi

This is how i disappear

woke so early this morning, just to wake lin..now unable to sleep back..i close my eyes i see a beautiful girl. with big black eyes, like snowie's eyes..hiding a corner..it's a close up anyway..i open my eyes..kept thinking of that pretty little girl..i tried not to think about her..i close my eyes again..

now i see a pretty mother..with an "dutch lady" outfit..talking to someone..that i cannot see..

i don't wanna see those anymore..i open my phone and saw a message by bei..i cried so hard..feeling a little afraid for today's meet up..

well it actually makes me think of a stupid story i made up myself..its silly..

" story of a little boy, bringing beautiful sand to a little girl..the little girl loves to hang out with the little boy..everytime he brings beautiful sand, he'd put it in a box.. it's a plain white square box, and there's a hole on top of the box..so that they can put in the sand..the boy brings sand everytime he get some and he'd say "this is our collection"..the girl just smile..she IS very happy to see the boy giving her this sweet memory. after the box is filled up. the boy one day carry the box off the table."

"the boy didn't realise there's always a hole underneath. the sand is getting lesser and lesser now. people standing aside would think that the girl is really bad and selfish. she wouldn't give a hand but shake the box harder so that the sand leaked faster."

"at the other hand the girl have something in mind. she wants the boy to tried not to let the sand leak. that little boy feel helpless.. there's a hole at the top, and now the bottom. he wouldn't know what to do. his palm is not big enough to cover the hole. the little girl watched..she wants the boy to save the beautiful sand. that's 'their' collection. she doesn't want to lose it too..but the boy is helpless..he watches the sand fall to the ground. what he wanna tell the girl is [i will get you new sand][i will try to save it by getting a new sand].."

"the girl, feeling so sad and disappointed..walked away from the boy..and sit around the corner..wait for another kid to bring her something new that won't fall off the ground; something that can make her smile. while the boy, put away the box and walked away.."

it's stupid..it's silly..but i find many girls are like this little girl in the story..

and what happen to us is..the more sand that drop to the ground..the more i feel insecure..maybe in your mind..u have another version of your story but for me...this is u...ur like the little boy..

i know it happens to everyone..everyone have their happy moments..every couple have the sand..and their sand happen to fall a little off the box sometimes..but we're falling too much..our issue are a "non-stop". it's not just from you..it's from me too..

the other couples know how to cover it..but i don't..im selfish..im bad..i want you to cover all for me..that's the real me..that's what im telling you..that's the real me!!!


MetalYi

Excited for nothing~~xD

The line at the college lab is sooooooo dammmmmm turtle~~~until i suddenly feel the home line is super fast~~~even when pps is on???NOOOOOO!!! dun think so....

and yehh...i skipped AGAIN!!!!and i drank ice blended AGAIN!!!and im broke once AGAIN!!!!

friday's gonna go senior graduation showcase at Pasar Seni right??that's kinda cool...!!!well..hope the lecturer want us all to go then cancel the class...that'll be great!!!

whatever it is...i hope that i can get back in time to watch "UP"....!!!!MUST WATCH!!!!

i wanted to go for "ORPHAN" first...but since es and lin say "UP" first then im ok with it!!!Today is a reallly good day...i feel soooooo excited!!!!even i didn't get any message from you...i don't feel angry!!!maybe start to get used to it...i will live a life like W.T.....have a boyfriend but live like don't have one...it's pretty cool..

yeh i'm actually very girlish(im a girl duh~~)..what's it call then??fatt hao???OH KAY!!!I KNOW WHAT'S IT CALL..it;s call childish!!...i want a message everyday...

but that's what happen yesterday and day before yesterday...today...i can live without it...i have friends around..cool...really cool...nothing special happened today but i feel really excited!!!until i feel so tired now..xD

knowing that college have 2 person that infected in H1N1..i'm not worried at all..don't know why..seeing klee's reaction when she enters the lift makes me =.= hahahah...now think back i feel funny!!!!lin's asking me to wear a mask now...NAHHH!!!!!

yehhh i saw the animation lecturer look at me when he pass by...wow!!!!his eyes is like telling me to go out to talk to him...that's a little scary isn;t it..i always act like i didn't see him...

tomorrow there's an animation class..and im very very sure...there will be questions waiting for me...but what im gonna say is...i wont give him excuses...hope we can go on with our class...so that there's less stress...!!!

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2 shooting class this semester...i'm excited...i know there will be conflict..of course there will..every shooting have that..but we can do it..i want to come out with perfect film..im'ma try to work hard on this..to improve myself!!!

for last sem's result...i got an A for Script writing...i myself..can't believe that...this fella is so strict and he gave me A for 2 time..directing and script writing..it makes me feel dam dam happy!!!

well the rest are B and C..and of course...F for animation 2...SIGHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~.....
okay i'll keep back my sigh...sigh too much is not gonna help anyway xD

Hope Everyone's doing good!!!



Cheers, for the coming trouble,
MetalYi

just him and me...=\

i can't believe it...i'm so scare of that lecturer..and now i have to one on one with him...i was really shock that the whole class only have 2 students..and im the only one attend...i don't think the other student will come...

what cool is there's only me and the lecturer in the class...so class started at 12 and end at 12:40..!!nice...!!!

well the assignment~~sure is tough...~~this sem is going to be tiring...too many shootings to do!!

MetalYi

class is here!!!

wow..so i've been blogging for the whole year...since 2008..can't believe i can keep it on...i actually thinks that people who blog are very lifeless..yeah here i am xD

i took a brief look at the blog and saw that July has the most post..indeed...July is very happening..or maybe i don't really wanna blog now?

tomorrow will be the day i REALLY go to college..for first class..short film workshop..to be honest i don't know what the hell is that..hopefully we're just gonna watch a few film tomorrow...dreaming much huh?!?

i'm kinda scare of this lecturer..i don't know why...just scare of him..used to like him very much..maybe i gave him too many bad impression??i always see him from the east then i go to west, see him upstair i will run to downstair xD hope he don't remember me...there's too many subject he's gonna teach this semester and i know i can't escape it..

Just have to take out the first step i guess...so lets just see what's a "short film workshop" tomorrow...

what i wish is i can sleep tonight and i can wake tomorrow =)

Cheers to all,
MetalYi

NOOOOO~~~

the room is flood AGAIN!!!!!kinda serious this time...im worry bout my wardrobe =(

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MetalYi

Home Alone..

4:30pm - i'm alone at home..the moment lin walk out i shouted to her "I'M "RONELY""..

4:35pm - i'm alone at home..i feel so good..i lye at any sofa i wanna lye..go anywhere i wanna go..no sound pollution..finnally i find myself peace..even just a while..it's great!!

4:40pm - i'm alone at home..i go online even it's raining and lightning..and no one stops me..!!i ate hotdogs and blog..feeling so good!!

5:00pm - i'm alone at home..should have pull off all the phone line..mom called..asked me to take out pork from freezer.."two pieces of pork two pieces of pork.." the hell i know..the only two pieces i saw is "collar steak" how am i suppose to know if its pork??smell it??eat it??sigh..

hope they wont come back so soon...more time to enjoy!!



Cheers,
MetalYi

within temptation~once in a while~

Once in a while...listen to within temptation's song is GREAT~~~~



Our Solemn Hour

erm..what i mean once in a while is like really Once in a While..or you'll feel disturbed..=P

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Just Roared at snowie...for licking her wounds again...i erm..didn't know it'd be that loud..it actually scares me a little too...not to say snowie...she's already bowing to me...=.=

i think it's the phelm in my throat that cause that dam loud voice...i think i scares my dad too haha..

snowie is so depress...until now..don't wanna see me..nah nevermind..!!a while more she'll come to me again ;)

This few days am crazy over theme hospital..even in dream i see theme hospital..its crazy..and i never win!!i remember myself having seizure at 4am this morning...im finding the clinic in theme hospital in my dream..that's stupid...

kinda suffer...its been long time i haven't had seizure..so long that i forgot what i had to do...one thing im not sure...i slept at 2am..its not that late right..how can i have....nah..nevermind it...

i think my sleeping time is slowly turning back to normal..quite happy with that..but think of waking up without anything to do makes me feel sleeping back again =P

Ham Ham Dei~~xD

Esk bought us guava with MANY MANY SALT!!!saying that we both love salt..but this is abit over right??



Before we eat, we take off some of the salt...
After having the first peace...my ice tea dried out....=x
oh but after finishing the whole thing...i hunger for more...im actually suffering when i blog this..cause i feel eating the salt!!!poisoned!!!!hHAHAHAH

SaltyMetalYi